So God gave me a dawdler. Nothing makes you face your triggers and shadows like a child that just radiates them.
The thing is, when my oldest was little, we had no where we really NEEDED to be. I had people comment all the time how sweet it was that I let my daughter, not even two years old, push the cart at half past crawl speed through the store. But back then we had all morning to get done the one or maybe two errands we had to do.
These days there is preschool to attend and swim lessons and on her days "off" she gets upset if we don't get to go to story time or a playdate. Yet the simple act of putting shoes on would make me think she doesn't want to ever leave the house at all. I've even tested it. I thought maybe she says she wants to go but she would really rather just relax at home. So I didn't push it. I asked her to put her shoes on so we could go and after about ten minutes I walked away from the door and her empty shoes and went about my day. About two hours later she asked when we were going to story time and I told her we had stayed home instead. Whoa! Meltdown city.
I have tried to cut back on things we do, especially it we don't have to do them. I've even tested out the grocery pick-up to allow one less thing on the schedule. Somehow things still seem to be moving too fast.
My preschooler told me today, "I like it when you go to work. I like hanging out with Daddy. He doesn't rush me." I can't blame her. Even with trying to make it a game, I bet I can get my shoes on before you can or first one to get their shoes on gets to give the dog an extra treat; it is still a push to get done fast.
I only work a few hours in the evening for the most part which means during "Daddy's time" they don't leave the house. It is dinner and playtime. That's it. And while we get some special mom daughter play time while the baby naps it is after a morning of me rushing her around to get her to school or wherever on time.
After her comment today I had to ask myself, "why AM I rushing?" I mean honestly, why can't I slow down? Yeah she may be bummed if we miss story time but we would both get time to unwind. And it sounds like I'm not the only one needing that time to just hang out together.
This comes at the perfect time. School is out tomorrow. Other than groceries we have nothing to do Wednesday either. And just making this plan in my mind already has me feeling better.
I'm grateful to recognize my triggers. I'm grateful to do my best to keep it fun and playful for my daughter amidst the dawdling. I'm grateful to mostly get us places on time. I'm grateful for a week to relax and slow down. I'm grateful to hear her communicate that same need. I'm grateful she has such a good time to wind down with her daddy. I'm grateful for my beautiful life.
What are your triggers? Where does your life need to slow down?
May your day have enough time for enjoyment. May you slow down where needed and enjoy the ride. Have a beautiful day!