The need for extra sleep during this pregnancy has been strong. There have been more nights than not that I have gone to bed as soon as we get our toddler down. And even then it doesn't always feel like enough sleep.
But I have another need. I have a need to hold an adult conversation. I have a need to be able to connect with my husband for a full thought without being interrupted by a toddler six times. And I have a need to communicate my day and hear about others'.
I have let the pendulum of these two needs swing way off balance. Staying up all these nights means I will need several days to catch back up on the sleep needed but lost. And yet I feel no regret in getting to have a real conversation with my husband last night or one with my girlfriend this weekend. I just need to find the balance.
My husband and I have already proven we cannot have a short conversation. We miss our intelligent chats too much to just cut off at ten or even thirty minutes. But it looks like we will have to limit the nights in a row we engage if balance is going to be restored.
I'm grateful for lots of communication this weekend! I'm grateful to get to reconnect with a friend and with my husband. I'm grateful to sleep a little heavier from the exhaustion of staying up later. I'm grateful to recognize the need for balance and more sleep. I'm grateful to remember from our first daughter that this exhaustion is temporary. I'm grateful for taking care of myself and acknowledging both needs. I'm grateful to have a husband with which I enjoy having long, deep conversations. I'm grateful for our daughter's love of talking and I'm grateful to be helping her work on listening and taking turns as part of good communication. I'm grateful for this beautiful life and the cyclic lesson that always reminds me of the need for balance.
What balance are you seeking this week? Are your needs being met and balanced? If not, how do you plan to find the middle ground?
May today remind us to cherish the people around us. May we find balance in the care we give, the connections we hold dear, and our own self-care. Have a beautiful day!