In the midst of a pandemic with numbers on the rise, I would not recommend throwing all caution to the wind. This isn't the time or place for what is holding many of us back. We need to respect the parameters of what we need to do to get this under control so we can get back to a least a closer resemblance of normal life. Instead, maybe we could ask ourselves, "What would I do today if I knew it would end this pandemic faster?" "What could I do today if I knew it would help keep the people around me healthy and safe?" "What would I be willing to tolerate today if it meant having a normal 2021?" "What if I let go of the disappointment of a couple missed holidays for the bigger picture?"
My work is being hit hard from the pandemic. It never came fully back after the shutdown and with numbers higher than ever I have plenty of clients returning to their own code of shelter-in-place. Normally the holiday season would be packed with clients and a waitlist longer than the days of the month. Instead I find myself scrambling to keep spots filled as exposures and fears soar. It is easy to get absorbed in it.
But what if I just let it go? What if I trusted that I could get by with only the clients that are healthy, safe, and comfortable? What if I accepted that it is probably healthier for me, both physically and mentally, to just accept this slower work schedule. What if I trusted my bills could be managed even in this pinch?
I'm grateful for those clients who are playing it safe and staying healthy. I'm grateful to have been able to work amid growing numbers and not have any exposure, to my knowledge, so far. I'm grateful to feel that familiar anxiety squeeze creeping in and use it to pause and re-evaluate what is important. I'm grateful to practice letting go, even as it means directly affecting my income and family. I'm grateful for honest clients. I'm grateful to sit with the what if's, not to find all the answers but to give myself another option.
Which "what if" questions are you feeling? How can we move through this pandemic with grace, community, and faith?
May today allow us to ponder the harder questions. May we take the time to truly ask what we can do to move the whole country, whole world, forward. Have a beautiful day!