I would love to say that all these patience building moments have resulted in my having superhuman length of patience. I would love to even be able to consider myself a patient person, but if I'm being honest I still usually have to talk myself through it. And even then I lose my patience quicker than I would like to admit.
I've made a deal with myself that if I am awake at night longer than sixty to ninety minutes and tried at least a couple breathing techniques with no sign of falling back to sleep, I will get up. Really it is the thought that if my brain is working anyway I may as well put it to positive use writing my blog. Then when I do make it back to sleep maybe I can sleep in a little to make up for the time awake.
I don't know that this really holds true in practice but it is a belief I still follow. So rather than continuing to lie in bed, uncomfortable and analyzing things that cannot in this moment be changed, here I sit blogging. So what am I grateful for today?
I'm grateful for my dad's simple reminder of patience. I'm grateful he never said, "You should be more patient..." I'm grateful to try to be self-aware when I feel my frustration building so I can practice patience. I'm grateful that having a toddler means plenty of opportunities to not only practice but to teach patience. I'm grateful to know she is very much my reflection and her habits are a product of her experiences and what she witnesses in each of us as caregivers. I'm grateful for the moments I model patience and I'm grateful for the humbleness to talk to her about when I lose mine. I'm grateful for the little bit of hope it gives me that perhaps at least I can help model something better, as my dad did for me. And I'm grateful for all the kid friendly techniques I have learned like "bear breathing" or "blowing the hot cocoa" that bring mindfulness and calming practices down to my daughter's level.
What tests your patience? How do you respond? What techniques help you to keep your patience?
May today give us simple tests that expand our ability to be patient without pushing us to the limit. May we find patience in our hearts for all the people we interact with today as we never know their whole story. Have a beautiful and blessed day!