This week has been a great example. From coming off a weekend of celebrating my birthday; I stepped into a week of going the extra mile to show clients love, a family member having surgery, and a toddler set on testing the rules. It has been full of delicious food and probably too much sweets. It was a week of getting a new, beautiful designer purse and coming home to find my dog ate my kindle.
I am more than a little bit exhausted. I can't tell how much is from getting up five times a night with my daughter and how much is from all the events going on. After finding my Kindle last night, and yes the dog is fine, my husband made an observation. He said ninety percent of the time I am up and when I am up I and UP and positive and happy. But then he said after I have a week or so of those days of giving one hundred and ten percent and being the positive beacon for everyone, I crash hard. And my lows are deep.
His observation is correct. I have always felt like the lows were a flaw, like I should be able to handle them with more grace when they hit. And I have wondered why it is that some days I can and other days not but after seeing it through his eyes I finally understand.
When I am going and giving and pouring all my energy into seeing the positive and lifting others up, I am usually not taking the time to do what I need too. My "bank" runs dry and I crash, turn into myself and refill. But it doesn't have to be that way. I don't have all the answers yet. I am not willing to give up being who I am and going the extra mile for the people in my life, but I can find a way to include myself in that regularly.
Life is going to have lows. I am not afraid of the lows. But I do want to help myself to have the reserves to handle them without the crash landing. I believe gratitude and self-care are great parachutes. So now it is a matter of finding the balance.
I'm grateful for my husband's observation. I'm grateful my dog is ok. I'm grateful my hand is ok after hitting the floor in anger. I'm grateful to be able to give above and beyond when my clients need me. I'm grateful for my family's health and for the surgery going well. I'm grateful to always be looking at ways to improve myself while trying to keep it judgment free. I'm grateful to see where self-care could be improved and how that could cushion my low days. I'm grateful to know that the ups and downs are part of life and it's all just a phase to pass through.
How do you handle the ups and downs of life? Do you have something special you do for yourself of particularly challenging weeks?
May today remind us that it is ok to be human. May we recognize the aspects of ourself that don't work for us and find positive changes. May we embrace who we are in this moment, even the aspects we are working to shift. Have a beautiful day!