While this is like a merit badge of motherhood, it doesn't mean it doesn't grow old. And with the added stress of trying to get set up for my return to work in the next week or two I have to be honest with myself and my kids. "Mommy just can't do that today. It's my turn to pick the tunes."
Alexa has had her own issues lately. When asked to play happy music she started playing a whining Alanis Morissette. When asked to play Michael Buble she chose the sad ones. When asked to play happy mother's day music she played Miranda Lambert's "Mama's Broken Heart." Today I wasn't going to leave my music choice in the hands of a "smart" speaker.
I walked over to my cd player, yes, I have one still and I love it! I popped in one of my sonicaid massage music cds that is all subtle tones and music meant to inspire mindfulness and peace. We listened to it all morning and my daughter even commented that she liked one of the songs.
More importantly, I had something to tune into and I noticed a huge difference. Instead of "I've already told you three times" I found myself breathing into the music and continuing my reminders. My anxiety and stress seemed to lower even though nothing had been taken off my shoulders. I just simply had a better, slower soundtrack to navigate it.
Isn't that how it goes though? I feel like this can be said about so many things. If my self-care is in place, I handle things better. If I have the right focus and a good perspective, the plot twists seem more manageable. And, apparently, with the right "station" playing I can just dance even in the rain.
I'm grateful to speak up for me. I'm grateful to be honest with my kids. I'm grateful to remind myself that it isn't just them that need to take turns with each other, I can ask for a turn too. I'm grateful for my calm music. I'm grateful for my cd player. I'm grateful to slow things down today and move into the flow of the dance. I'm grateful to keep the soundtrack going as long as I need. I'm grateful to recognize my need and to know that by meeting my need I am also helping my whole family to stay in a positive flow.
What helps you calm down? What music is helping you through your current situation? Is it calm or bouncy, happy or crooning? Perhaps even just a little bit loud and yelling depending on where you are and what helps you release. There is no right or wrong, only what's best for each person.
May we speak up and meet our own needs. May we find the station that helps us best move through our current situation with ease. Have a beautiful day!