I feel alone today. I feel unsupported. And while I know in my logic that this is untrue, it is a tough feeling to shake.
The truth is I am grieving. The truth is I am exhausted. The truth is that I am loved and supported in so many ways. And yet the truth is that there is a disconnect at the moment between those truths and my heart. There is a fog that has settled.
I tried my resources this morning but these practices are not working. I revert back to the basics. I curl up in my husband's sweatshirt. I spray his cologne on it so I can pretend I am inside a big hug. And I sit at the window, patiently waiting as the fog lifts. The sun peeks over the treetops and I can feel my smile returning. It is a new day. I am okay.
I'm grateful to take my time this morning. I'm grateful to know there is support all around me even when the fog clouds my view. I'm grateful for my husband's sweatshirt and cologne. I'm grateful to watch my feelings reflected in nature. I'm grateful for the sun's rise and release of the fog. I'm grateful to allow my grief to continue its process. I'm grateful to know that all will be okay. And as I hear my daughter waking upstairs, I'm grateful to have a smile for her.
How is nature reflecting your emotions today? How do you clear the fog?
May today bless us with sunshine to warm us and chase out the fog. May we find support at every turn. Have a beautiful day!