For the preschooler this was a more subtle form of seeking reassurance. It came in testing some regularly established boundaries and extra physical touch.
For the baby it was more obvious as her separation anxiety and a need to be held at all times. Sleeping within arms reach and even being within sight for the car ride were included in the need for reassurance with the little one.
We went from full vacation mode, sleeping in and doing our own thing yesterday on the road to tossed back into full daily grind today. I thought the sound of my alarm clock this morning would be an unwelcome sound to practice redirecting my mind to gratitude. Instead I was awake thirty minutes before the alarm after a night of multiple reassurances for the baby as she transitioned back to her crib.
My preschooler on the other hand was back and forth between not wanting to leave me and wanting to see her friends and tell them all about her trip. She bucked against the idea of having nap time reinstated then promptly passed out from exhaustion less than two minutes after I left.
The baby on the other hand struggled with nap time alone in her crib again and woke crying several times. At one point I could feel my anxiety and impatience growing as I tried again to settle her in. But reprogramming back into the routine requires me to have stable and calm energy to help her transition so a few deep breaths brought my resolve and patience back.
As the girls both slept I was tempted to just curl up to a show or take a nap myself. Instead I worked on getting myself back into routine as well. I worked in my rowing workout and still had time to fold the three loads of laundry I had washed last night and today.
It's funny how what is routine still needs reprogrammed back into the mind after a long break. The blessing is it also gives the ability to make small shifts to improve the routine.
Everything we do programs us in one way or another. Each choice we make, whether it be in our response or plan, begins creating a routine.
I'm grateful for routines that help things run smoothly. I'm grateful to throw routines out the window to enjoy a fun vacation. I'm grateful my daughters are secure in their trust and look to me (and their dad) to follow along with change. I'm grateful for how great they each did on their trip and how they are readjusting to our regular lifestyle. I'm grateful for all the extra snuggles and special moments created both by the trip and by our return. I'm grateful to see some of their personality emerge in the ways they transition. I'm grateful to keep my own patience and calm as I help them transition. I'm grateful to be making tweaks to the routine to help us all grow as we move forward.
What is your routine? How does it serve you? How do you transition in and out of your routine? Is your routine in need of any shifts?
May we find the best routine to serve us in the present and in our growth for the future. May we be open to shifts as they need to be made. May we all find our own groove as we balance between routine and free-flow. Have a beautiful day!