How are you? Doing pretty well. How is pregnancy? Going well, she is growing away in there! The key is that most people ask generalized questions and generalized questions are easy to choose to answer positively. But sometimes the question is posed right that I cannot answer authentically and still apply that gloss. Or sometimes I am just worn out and it is harder to keep that positive, rosy filter in place.
So when my coworker asked last night how I was FEELING as this pregnancy progressed there were two truths to share. I'm feeling excited. I'm also feeling a little defeated as some of the challenges of this pregnancy once again swing out of balance and seem to be unable to regulate. Now part of this is just called pregnancy but the challenge I am speaking of is anemia and it is new to me as I did not struggle with this during my last pregnancy.
My coworker provided some loving recommendations and I listened, though most of them I have tried. Then our newer coworker happened to overhear and it turns out she has a background in nutrition in just this sort of deficiency solving. She told me which things to ask my doctor if I could have while pregnant and pointed me in the direction of specific solutions.
It is a struggle I have been dealing with for months and yet in that moment of authenticity I was rewarded with clear solutions. Just the knowledge that there may be a solution helped to clear my hear a little and when I settled in to go to sleep last night a couple simple solutions to easy issues surfaced. One hilariously obvious solution; I have been having trouble sleeping because of feeling too hot and yet there are not one but two fans in my room. Simply redirecting which way they blew made all the difference.
I'm grateful to do my best to be mindful of not complaining. I'm grateful to try to find the positive in each situation. I'm grateful to have a couple key people in my life that I allow myself to speak freely and "translate" later. I'm grateful to try to stay authentic even as I search for positivity. I'm also grateful in those moments when a question is posed differently that requires a little more thought and a little more authentic answer. I'm very grateful to have been blessed with a new perspective, new information, and to learn more about my coworker. I'm grateful to have a wonderful doctor that continues to help find solutions with me even as we near the end of this pregnancy.
When automated questions are tossed your way, how do you answer? When authentic inquiries are placed are you more likely to give authentic answers or do you still gloss?
May today help us find balance in our honesty and authenticity. May we find the solutions we seek and may we find the silver lining in each cloud. Have a beautiful day!