Today I feel like my face is going to explode from the sinus pressure of the cold that I caught from my daughter. My daughter most likely caught the cold from one of the places we went last week as I tried to make an effort to prioritize and do more "stay-at-home-mom" and "baby and me" type activities.
It comes as the exclamation mark after a weekend of canceled clients due to a shoulder injury that had my arm in a sling. My shoulder was miraculously feeling better so quickly after lots of rest and self care. And now there seems to be a new roadblock smacking me in the face.
I sit here this morning reminding myself how important it is to listen to the signs. In some ways it feels the signs are guiding me to be home more and spend more time with my daughter while other signs seem to be pointing me away from playing out that role as I envisioned it. And I will be honest that I am struggling with letting go of how I want to do things and how I want things to look. I want to have a certain amount of work each week. I want to do certain activities with my daughter and give her these opportunities. And more immediately I want to be able to treat my body and immune system the way I have always boosted and aided it; yet I find key elements are missing from places they are kept.
It is time to listen. It is time to release control. It is time to allow the Universe to be heard and time to allow myself to be guided. Something is changing and rather than resist it, I want to embrace it.
I'm grateful to take time to pause and recognize there is some higher reason at play here. I'm grateful to come back around to gratitude as I pick myself up out of my frustration. I'm grateful for a husband who is patient with me when I am stuck in my head strong zone and don't want to hear alternatives. I'm grateful that he is a good reflection for me to remember that he isn't the only one trying to get me to listen to other possibilities. And I'm grateful that he can pull me out of the spiral that exhaustion and frustration can lead. I'm grateful for this blog where I can be honest and admit that gratitude is not always easy or a first response even after all my years of practice. And I'm grateful to give myself a break for these moments that I forget to listen and to recognize all my blessings.
What is the Universe trying to tell you? Are you listening to other possibilities?
May today be kind in its guidance. May we step passed the barriers we have given ourselves and be open to other possibilities. Have a beautiful day!