Some nights I sleep well and other nights, like tonight, I awake reflecting on one piece of my day again. Usually it is a piece of the day that I feel I could have handled differently while other times I have an epiphany about something I did that had an underlying cause or an originally undetected consequence. It is a way of processing for me. It is a way for me to continue to grow and be my best self.
Tonight I awoke thinking of sarcasm. Often times when I am being silly or if I am feeling nervous in front of a group of people, I will use sarcasm to break my own tension. But as I wake in reflection I am now aware of the sometimes unkind way it may look from the outside.
Being unkind is never my intention. And yet I am aware of cases when others' sarcasm has embarrassed me or felt disrespectful. So now I must reflect on the idea that I have behaved in a way not reflective of the loving and respectful person I try to be each day.
I am human. I make mistakes but I can also choose to bring awareness and change to the habits I want to change. Much like I use the people around me as a mirror to the parts of myself I need to review, I can use the reflection of my own behaviors as a way to grow.
I'm grateful for this late night observation. I'm grateful to forgive myself for my imperfections while still granting myself the opportunity to grow. I'm grateful to be ever reflective on my behaviors and habits. I'm grateful for the ways that makes me a better, mom, friend, wife, and daughter. I'm grateful to compare myself only to my past selves and know that we are each unique on our own personal journey. And I'm grateful to use humor and sarcasm in the right place and time to be funny and respectful.
What reflections have you noticed lately? How do you use the tool of reflection?
May today grant us the ability to understand our actions. May we reach to be our best selves and may that include spreading love and respect. Have a beautiful day!