My little one, the more cautious of my two kids, decided over the last few days that it is more fun to stand at the top of the slide and try to walk down. Even though she has become steady walking around these days, downhill is definitely not in her skill set yet. Despite several near wipeouts (that her sister or I caught her right before face-plant) she continued to stand at the top of the slide. In fact, she heard us saying "sit down" so many times that she would stand up there calling "sit down, sit down" to get our attention.
There is a balance as a mom in not giving attention for negative attention-seeking behaviors and not letting your child have a serious injury. In this case that led to a lot of walking back and forth. The issue was I was in some pain and coming back and forth between trying to figure out dinner and keeping my child's head round (and at least fairly un-lumpy) was aggravating it more. By the time I was nearly through cooking I had about reached my pain threshold, which I might add is pretty high.
Once my husband got off work he kept asking me if I wanted to sit down but I thought moving and being upright would be better. Yet as I finished up the dishes and went into the living room to spend time with my family I found the opposite was true. Sitting on the floor took nearly all the pain away.
I couldn't help but chuckle at the irony. I had told my daughter to sit down dozens of times, listened to my older daughter say it another dozen times to her sister, and refused my husband's encouragement to sit down only to have the pain subside when I finally sat. For some reason I was stuck in the "power through" mentality.
How many other times have I found myself stuck in that mentality? My head telling me to just keep plowing forward when my body is clearly telling me the opposite; how many times? So what is my resistance to just sitting down?
I have a few obvious ideas but it will be fun to sit with this question for the next few days and see what all emerges. It is a good reminder and one that I hopefully won't need to keep repeating. There is nothing wrong with just sitting down.
I'm grateful for a little chuckle tonight. I'm grateful the pain passed. I'm grateful to have gotten to make and serve my family dinner. I'm grateful to have several eye opening and introspective moments this weekend. I'm grateful for my little one's growing vocabulary. I'm grateful for my older one's growing ability to verbalize how she is feeling. I'm grateful to hear I am a good mom, because sometimes in the daily grind of it all it is easy to forget the things we are doing right. I'm grateful for family meals and lots of time together this weekend.
Have you ever had a moment like this, where you realize your words were just as much for you? How did you respond?
May today remind us we are human. May we remember we are all deserving of rest and taking that time to meet our needs is a priority. May we always be willing to hear the message to ourselves in our words. Have a beautiful day!