As I ride some interesting waves of emotion this morning I had a novel idea. Lately I seem to find turbulence in looking back either at how far I've come or at the idea that I "should" be farther. But when I counter that by looking to the future I also find it rough when I have ideals of an image without a clear picture. In these moments I, of course, turn to my gratitude. What am I grateful for right now, in this moment, without prep and planning as to how this blog or day will look. I'm grateful for the odd noise that the shower upstairs is making as it fills the drain. I'm grateful for the sound of rain pattering outside even though I would be grateful for some sunshine. I'm grateful for the sound of my dog eating her breakfast without any prompting. I'm grateful for the smell of the banana peel on the table next to me and the remnants of its taste in my mouth as I decide if more breakfast is needed. I'm grateful for a half full water glass and to know that I can walk over and refill it whenever I need. I'm grateful for the jacket that takes the chill off. And with these feelings of gratitude, armed with my list is where my novel idea comes into play. What if for today I did not focus on what has been or what is to come? What if I have the novel perspective to just be okay with the moment I am in right now? It does not address any fears of future income or illuminate a clear photo of the future for my mind to grab. It just simply is. It is within this perspective that I can ask myself "am I happy?" If I could be doing anything right now, what would I be doing? The absolute honest answer to this question is helping people. Working with people. It is so easy to answer the skewed version of that question which is often what happens. What would I be doing if everything were going my way and were already aligned in this moment? That is the question I hear most people, including myself, answering. Well if that were the case I would be mothering my children and preparing to go into my library/ office to work from home. But as my children have not been born yet and my library/ office is an empty room with a few boxes of books it does not really help to answer it this way. So I take a step back, back to the present. In this moment, what can I do? I can help people. I can be there when they need a hand. I can give love and trust that abundance will flow back to me in a number of forms including the monetary means of paying my bills. And I do believe this. In this moment I see that the waves have settled, my emotions are reset, and I am ready to start this beautiful day. Which question have you been answering? How can you step back into the present moment? What are you grateful for right now? May you find the answer to this question in the present moment and may every action take you to the answer of the next question. Have a beautiful day and thank you for joining me in my process as I return to a place of balance and gratitude.
I believe the way to a better future starts with gratitude today.