Today started off way too early but with cheerful smiles and cuddles. Then we left the bedrooms. It was a day of cranky preschooler, clingy baby, and lots of tears from both.
Part of the stress is we have once again had an upheaval to the routine we had created during this shelter-in-place. Another part, I'm sure, is the energy shift as my husband and I continue to reevaluate and try to figure out how the city's reopening is going to look for our jobs. No matter how much we try to be the steady rock for our kids there is a lot of uncertainty and stress as we try to prepare, with little guidance, for what is still basically all unknown territory.
It was a balancing act between giving my oldest the space to release and express her emotions and walk her back from getting stuck on the "dark side". And when the baby showed she was ready for bed early, I was right there to support that plan. Unfortunately she still had enough energy to have her, now routine, forty or more minutes of screaming her head off. If ever a villain needed a way to suck someone's soul out while simultaneously shattering their heart, this would be the technique they would use.
But the day was not all pitfalls. Even in the roughest day there are some bright spots, right?
Our garden sprouts are starting to take off. I managed to clear some clothes out of my closet to be donated. I got to see my girls playing together kindly. My oldest and I got to have some much needed painting time together. I grabbed a few groceries. I even got the dishes cleaned up from dinner.
I'm grateful for these beautiful spots in the day. I'm very grateful to take time to sit and paint because it is very calming for me. I'm grateful my daughter is into painting right now so we can share this activity and time together. I'm grateful for her thoughtfulness when painting that she chooses someone to give it to and tries to include their favorite color in it. I'm grateful for my husband's help today on his breaks and after work to help give me a breather. I'm grateful both girls are resting peacefully for the moment.
What bright spots blessed your day today? Who do you lean on during the rough days? What little things help keep you focused on gratitude when other things seem to be crashing all around you?
May today remind us to be still and seek the beauty. May we find gratitude in every day. May we remember that we are all living REAL lives and give each other grace, not pedestals. Have a beautiful day!