Last night I was awaken in pain. It was no small sign that something was off. In fact it was a persistent and intense sign that is only now beginning to ease, several hours later. For the first hour I allowed myself to attach to the feeling, wracking my brain to identify a cause or "cure". Yet identifying possible causes in this situation left me with no solution on anything I could change in the moment; lacking the ability to go back in time. It reached a point where I just had to remind myself to let go. And so this morning as the discomfort nags at a more tolerable level I can't help but explore this balance.
In this moment I am allowing that my body is unhappy. I am allowing the feeling without trying to mask or ignore it. And yet I am letting go of the search for why. I'm letting go of pouring fear energy into it. I'm allowing it to be what it is in this moment and to catalog this in my mind so that perhaps next time it can be avoided. For now, this is the moment to be. And the more I sink into that the more it eases on its own. It is a beautiful gift.
I'm grateful for this reminder of giving my energy to what I want. I'm grateful to be in this moment and feeling it ease. I'm grateful to let go of the "could have" or "should have" thoughts of last night. I'm grateful for the strength I have found within me and I'm grateful for the support I receive from those I love. I'm grateful to be creating a beautiful day for myself.
How do you tune in without becoming attached? Is there a trick you use to release the "should have" thoughts? For me it is finding acceptance for what I have done and choosing what I will do next time without judgement. It is all lessons learned. May today bless you with appreciation for the moment. May you find peace within. Have a beautiful day!