Pretty soon I had honed in on one topic. It began to circle around forming more complex meanings and even judgements. This was my runaway train. Once I recognized which thoughts were taking over it was easy to see what my dreams had been telling me and why I had woken so early.
I guided myself back to the free flow of thoughts but pretty soon that train came barreling through again. I put it on pause, one sentence at a time and sat with the feelings of each. Then I began focusing on my breath and fell back to sleep easily.
It was a process but it worked to get me back to sleep. When I woke I asked my husband what he thought about the question and judgement that had been circling in my head earlier. He came to the same conclusion, that I had made the best choice at the time. And with that confirmation I felt my thoughts begin to free flow once again.
Our thoughts are not bad or good. They are the babbles of the brook. It is important to acknowledge the ones that catch and cause struggle but it is also important to move on.
Perhaps today's message hits home with you or perhaps it is the ramblings of not getting enough sleep. Either way it was a beautiful moment to me to work through the process and find peace once again.
I'm grateful to feel balanced and peaceful. I'm grateful to release any judgements on "should have done" thoughts because they do not serve me. I'm grateful to know that I made my decision with the best information I had at the time. I'm grateful to have a husband that backs me. I'm grateful to have taken the time to sit with my thoughts this morning and process through so I could get a little more sleep. And I'm grateful for the little more sleep.
What do you observe when you allow your thoughts to free flow like a picture passing in front of you? Do you have a runaway train in the mix today? How do you choose to handle your runaway trains?
May today bless you with peaceful, loving thoughts. May you recognize your own good decisions and know that we all do our best with the information we have in the moment. Have a beautiful day!