As for not choosing a place to eat, I usually tell myself that the other person is probably hungrier and I am fine with anything. The funny thing is that I am fairly picky, not as much as I was in my younger years, but I still have texture and spice concerns. Yet I have found that if I let him pick then I get to try new things and find some that I really enjoy. Where as if it were up to me, we would honestly probably eat at the same three or four places every time.
I always found justification for these ways of putting off making the decision. I have no problem choosing on my birthday. I have no problem, most of the time, choosing things at the store for groceries or toilet paper or common everyday things. Or so I thought...
Over the last couple days I have been extra aware of times when a decision could be quick and easy and yet it has taken me a while. I ran to the store to get some medicine for my daughter yesterday. I went to get the exact one we were out of, mostly because since I don't use medicines I trust my husband got what was best last time. Yet when I arrived I realized her age is now straddling the baby versus toddler lines of medicine. It took me fifteen minutes to decide to just buy both!
I have noticed it with decisions on my daughter's new room and now I wonder if it truly is wanting to make sure my husband and I agree. I have noticed it even with some of the little things like choosing diapers when they are out of the kind we usually get.
The place I seem to do best at decision making is when driving. I commit to try out the left lane and know that if the building turns out to be on the right I can turn around. So how do I apply that philosophy to the other decisions? After all most decisions are not carved in stone and what would be the worst that could happen by choosing the diaper, dog food, or pads that turn out to not be the best? Return it? Can't return it and have to try again next time?
Today I make a vow to explore this further. I am making the decision to make decisions! I am releasing whatever fear there is behind making a wrong decision and saying this is what I choose. No more driving myself crazy with the back and forth guessing and weighing. Yes, I am a Libra (and the scales are a very accurate representation) but I do not have to weigh out everything.
I'm grateful to finally open my eyes to this awareness. I'm grateful to explore the underlying fears and insecurities that hold me back from committing to a decision. I'm grateful for all the decisions I make easily. I'm grateful for the places like driving that I have confidence in my decisions. I'm grateful to know I am the driver of my life even outside the car and I can apply that confidence to other decisions. I'm grateful for my big heart that takes everyone else into account but I am equally grateful to give myself permission to say "this is what I want." I'm grateful to practice letting go of the what ifs and embrace making a choice no matter the outcome.
How are you at making decisions? What decisions are easiest for you to make? What decisions give you pause?
May today renew our confidence in our ability to decide. May we go forward making educated and well-intended decisions. Have a beautiful day!