Yesterday I experienced a different perspective. Not having the energy to shield but still wanting to give my daughter the experience of seeing her favorite artist in concert; I took her to a Mr Stinky Feet event. Several girlfriends came with there kids and we sat in a group so the girls could dance together. The energy of the music and crowd actually gave me a boost rather than feeling a drain.
Then again last night, as we went to my parents' house for dinner, I felt a small boost in energy after sitting around laughing and talking with them. This is pretty common but I had always looked at it as a boost from feeding my soul. Last night I questioned if it didn't have something to do with not feeling a need to shield myself from my parents' energy.
Some people talk about energy vampires, people that suck your energy and bring you down. I don't believe in this blame and negative idea. I don't believe anyone can "take" our energy away. I have always seen it that some people's energy does not mesh with our own and on top of that if they seem to keep a negative attitude it is easy to have our own energy crash when spending too much time with them. I look at it more that it is my responsibility to protect and smooth my own energy. If being around someone is draining, I limit my exposure. It is not a fault, it is a lack of compatibility.
Perhaps in all these years of my blocking the energy of others I have also blocked some of the compatibility that feeds my soul. I do not know for sure because I do not know how the other people experienced yesterday but it was a positive experience for me. It opened my eyes to where I put up walls that are not necessary. And it was nice to have a few brief times of having the energy to feel like myself again.
I'm grateful for these small energy boosts yesterday. I'm grateful to have a perspective I have held for a long while be held up in new light. I'm grateful to keep an open mind as I explore what this means to me and how this affects my understanding of the world. I'm grateful to believe in energy and have experience with how mine interacts with others'. I'm grateful for more tests today to help me understand what is happening physiologically with my body so I can find solutions to this exhaustion.
Do you ever notice your energy level shift after hanging out with someone in particular? Can you feel your own energy and how it ebbs and flows?
May today allow us a smooth energy ride. May we find new perspectives to explore and keep an open mind when those perspectives try to shift a belief we have held for a long time. Have a beautiful day!