On our family trip last month we visited a "retired" volcano. Plants have grown on the surface and even in the crater. According to the park ranger, there is no longer any concern of it erupting.
Today this sounds like a good goal. Last night I reached the level of frustration that I exploded and spiraled down the path of guilt and anger. It is a story that I carry and when my reserves are depleted and my tank is empty this story bubbles to the surface.
I was like a volcano. I let the frustration erupt and then proceeded to follow the lava flow down the path of untruth, carried by emotion and exhaustion. This is not a side of me I usually share because it is now a side I am proud of, and yet today I embrace its lesson.
Rather than allowing the guilt to hold me today, I am listening to its message. This is not the reaction I want to pattern. This is not the type of behavior I want to model. And despite how it feels, it is my choice. I do have the power to balance my energy and actions. I am worth the effort of taking time for self-care and when I take this time for myself it benefits not only me but my whole family.
I'm grateful for this reminder. I'm grateful to not hide behind the image of perfection. I'm grateful for these sides of me that teach me and help me grow. I'm grateful for a loving and supportive family. I'm grateful to know that we are all human and all have aspects that we are working on day to day. I'm grateful to be honest and open about mine because it frees me from the story of guilt. I'm grateful for the ability to feel my emotions so strongly but also to be able to see passed them to the truth of the situation, even if not in the moment. I'm grateful to start a new plan and a new commitment to finding control below the surface and not settling for just the image of it.
What image do you try to uphold? If you let go of trying to appear a certain way, what would it free you to be? Would it give you the courage to actually build that person rather than just the image?
May today remind us that we are perfect within our imperfections. May we see that creating who we want to be is often less energy that trying to create the image. May we know no matter where we are on this path, we are supported. Have a beautiful day!
Today this sounds like a good goal. Last night I reached the level of frustration that I exploded and spiraled down the path of guilt and anger. It is a story that I carry and when my reserves are depleted and my tank is empty this story bubbles to the surface.
I was like a volcano. I let the frustration erupt and then proceeded to follow the lava flow down the path of untruth, carried by emotion and exhaustion. This is not a side of me I usually share because it is now a side I am proud of, and yet today I embrace its lesson.
Rather than allowing the guilt to hold me today, I am listening to its message. This is not the reaction I want to pattern. This is not the type of behavior I want to model. And despite how it feels, it is my choice. I do have the power to balance my energy and actions. I am worth the effort of taking time for self-care and when I take this time for myself it benefits not only me but my whole family.
I'm grateful for this reminder. I'm grateful to not hide behind the image of perfection. I'm grateful for these sides of me that teach me and help me grow. I'm grateful for a loving and supportive family. I'm grateful to know that we are all human and all have aspects that we are working on day to day. I'm grateful to be honest and open about mine because it frees me from the story of guilt. I'm grateful for the ability to feel my emotions so strongly but also to be able to see passed them to the truth of the situation, even if not in the moment. I'm grateful to start a new plan and a new commitment to finding control below the surface and not settling for just the image of it.
What image do you try to uphold? If you let go of trying to appear a certain way, what would it free you to be? Would it give you the courage to actually build that person rather than just the image?
May today remind us that we are perfect within our imperfections. May we see that creating who we want to be is often less energy that trying to create the image. May we know no matter where we are on this path, we are supported. Have a beautiful day!
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