I woke this morning still feeling a little raw and rather than tucking it away I wanted to share it with you. Last night I was confronted with some of my own imperfections. Sometimes I get so caught up in the image of myself that my clients project of me that I start to believe them instead of remembering that I too have my imperfections. For most of my life I had the habit of putting everyone on a pedestal and then trying to somehow become the "perfect" person that I had made them out to be in my head and when I would fall short I was be so hard on myself. Through the spiritual work I do and through focusing on gratitude for my perfect imperfections I have come a long way in seeing that there is no one set description for perfect. We are all different and we are all perfect in our own ways. This is what I try and help clients to see. And yet somewhere in the midst of that, through the backdoor of my mind, I began letting those people put me on a pedestal. And I began to try to live up to that image. Last night I fell short and it was a hard fall. I'm grateful for the fall. I'm grateful for the lack of grace it showed me and for a loving boyfriend to remind me the very things I tell my clients. No one is perfect and yet we are ALL perfect in our imperfectness. I'm grateful for the tears that fell to help me rinse away those old beliefs once again. I'm grateful for the loving supportive community that thinks so highly of me and that allows me to be open not only about my successes but also my stumbles. I'm grateful to be in a place where I can speak openly not only about my beliefs but also about my struggles. Today I go back to the photo that started it all. The five core truths that I placed on my nightstand with a picture that to me represents security and perseverance. I am strong. I am beautiful. I am whole. I am safe. I am ENOUGH. And I ask you to recognize these truths about yourself as well. I'm grateful for these core truths. I'm grateful for those of you that will practice them with me. And I'm grateful for those of you that are not yet ready or even those to whom they do not apply. I'm grateful for the diversity of beliefs that surround me. What are your beliefs? What are your core truths? How do you embrace your own perfect imperfections? Thank you all for allowing space for my own raw confessions. Thank you for being a part of this community. I'm so grateful!
I believe the way to a better future starts with gratitude today.