Flowers are blooming and the rain is steadily coming down. It is Spring! I am so ready for it this year.

The Spring cleaning bug bit a little early this year. I have been stacking things to donate, clearing out closets, reorganizing, and cleaning. It feels so nice to have energy flowing! It feels so nice to have clutter clearing out!

I'm so grateful to see another Spring blossoming outside. I'm grateful to be in full cleaning and clearing gear. I'm grateful for my husband's help in organizing. I'm grateful for some time this weekend to drop stuff off. I'm grateful to donate the stuff we no longer need. I'm grateful to be eyeing some fresh paint. I'm grateful to feel myself blooming with rebirth in this beautiful season.

What do you love about Spring? When was the last time you intentionally went through your home to clear it out? What do you no longer need?

May today be a blessing. May we give ourselves the gift of space, the gift of rebirth, and the gift of Spring! Have a beautiful day! 

Do you know the best part about trying something again? It is the faith and hope that it will go better this time. When we try again, we are telling ourselves, "I believe in you!" Plus, as long as we are still trying; we haven't failed. This is true no matter how many tries it takes.

I'm grateful to try again. I'm grateful to have a little ditty I sing to my kids about trying again. I'm grateful to be honest with my kids on where I have fallen short of my goal and how I plan to try again. I'm grateful for the amazing, supportive people in my life. I'm grateful for a very patient family. I'm grateful to believe in myself and have faith that I will accomplish each goal I set. 

What are you trying to accomplish? Which goals have you already had success? How often do you give yourself encouragement to try again?

May today be a reminder at where we have succeeded. May we always keep faith in ourselves and our ability to grow and achieve. Have a beautiful day!

We have been slow to move into the true winter weather here. We are just beginning to get the colder days and possibilities of snow. Most years this would have started weeks ago and the first day of Winter would seem out of place this late in the season. This year it feels well timed.

My favorite thing about the Winter Solstice is the reminder that light always returns. It isn't just a day and night cycle. We celebrated the longest night of the year and now the days will slowly begin getting longer again. As the months pass there will be a day when I drive home at sunset rather than in the dark. Light is making its return.

I'm so grateful for the reminder that the longest night is over and light is returning. I'm grateful for all the symbolism within the beauty of the solstice. I'm grateful winter has been mild so far this year. I'm grateful for these days of the year to finish projects and set goals. I'm grateful to be rounding out the year with abundance. I'm grateful to make mental plans for how future solstices can be celebrated. 

Did you celebrate the longest night? Are you excited for the return of Spring? What is your favorite thing about Winter?

​May today remind us light will always return. May we ride out our darkest hours with hope and surrounded by love. Have a beautiful day!

Today I woke up telling myself I was going to have a great day. I was determined to do things better than yesterday, kick the funk to the curb, and enjoy the day. 

I pushed myself to get up too early and work out while having a fussy little one join me because she couldn't sleep. I pushed myself to be silly and playful when I just wanted to sit. I pushed my body to its limit fasting because I had a blood draw today. And then I pushed myself some more when my body just wanted to crash. 

There were plenty of beautiful moments today. But it really should not come as a surprise that I wiped out hard on my goal to do things better. I lost my temper with my kids, which always breaks my heart. I broke down in tears multiple times throughout the morning. 

I was so focused on pushing myself to have a better day that I forgot to just listen to what I actually needed to make that possible. So now I get to pick up the pieces of my crash. I get to find space to forgive myself as well as asking forgiveness from my children. I get to walk that harder lesson on listening to what I actually need and trying to turn this day back around. 

I am human. It is sometimes hard to admit. I am a gratitude coach. But I am also a person who is working through trauma, PTSD, and occasional depression. I struggle with anxiety and with guilt. Gratitude does not make the world a magical place of no pain or struggle. It takes the real life things we are experiencing and helps us find a little piece of light. It helps us find the good so we can keep moving forward. 

Each day I write this blog it is in the hopes that someone who is struggling can get a small glimpse of light. It is the hope that someone out there will be encouraged to find gratitude in their day and that maybe it will help them in times of challenge. This blog is not my gratitude practice. My gratitude practice is the same as what I recommend to everyone else. I wake up and write four things I am grateful for that are truly from the heart. They are different every day. Before I go to bed I write down the best thing that happened that day and at least four more things I am grateful for about that day. When sh!t goes sideways I try to pause and remember there is a lesson in it and find gratitude for something, anything. And when I crash and burn and fall into dysregulation and funk, I use these same practices to pull myself back up. 

I'm grateful to question why I chose to push myself rather than let myself be. I'm grateful to ponder that and let the judgment fall away. I'm grateful to see where I can grow from this moment. I'm grateful to take a long pause and just let the tears flow unhindered. I'm grateful to be able to tell my kids I messed up and ask for their forgiveness. I'm grateful to be raw and honest with you so there can be no pedestal, no pressure, just gratitude practice. I'm grateful to hold the hope and belief that this honesty makes a difference. I'm grateful to believe gratitude is powerful.

When have you had a wipe out? How do you rebuild? What practices help you learn and move forward?

May we always keep learning and growing. May we find forgiveness for our stumbles and gratitude in every turn. Have a beautiful day!

June came to a close and July is kicking off. The rain has (maybe) moved out for a few days and the sun has even peeked out a few times. Swim lessons came to an end in time to spend the holiday weekend with family. 

There will always be cycles of beginnings and endings. They don't always line up like they seem to be doing today. Usually different aspects of our life are at different stages of the cycle. 

Sometimes endings feel sad. We have a connection or attachment to them and wish we could have just a little more time. Other times endings are a relief and we welcome moving forward toward something else. 

Sometimes beginnings are exciting and we can't wait to get started. Other times beginnings can be a little intimidating or scary as we navigate a situation that is completely new. 

I don't know what beginnings or endings you are going through right now. I hope they are ones you can easily see beauty in. No matter what they are, one thing is for sure, the beginnings will eventually become endings and the endings will open paths to new beginnings. So if you find yourself at a stage of a cycle that is challenging or painful, please know it will get better. Please know you are loved and supported. And always know you can reach out and find someone who is there for you.

I'm grateful to just witness these cycles today. I'm grateful to see the flow of the cycles that are coming and those that are passing. I'm grateful to trust the process. I'm grateful for a day with my kids and my dad at swim lessons. I'm grateful to see them achieving more skills. I'm grateful to prepare to see family we have been away from for too long. I'm grateful for some balance and some normalcy.

What are you grateful for today? What cycles do you appreciate? How do you find balance in this process?

May today remind us there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. May we move with trust and find beauty in the cycles as they begin and end. Have a beautiful weekend!

Yesterday I took some more time to recharge. There are times for rest and times for growth. I kept picturing the lotus flower slowly unfolding. I wrote yesterday's blog when I still felt "in the thick of it". Yet returning my focus to gratitude and my blog helped me recognize just how stuck and heavy my energy felt.

I'm all for recharging and retreating when needed but suddenly I felt like I was stuck in "the moment". Wait. Don't we always hear, "live in the moment"? I'm pretty sure they mean live in the present moment but even that can be tricky when we have to uphold some responsibilities and planning such as getting bills paid. 

The moment I was stuck in was a version of the present moment. It was the present moment in the middle of a tug-o-war between past choices and the uncertain future. What helps conquer the fears of uncertainty? Certainty, for one, and the one thing that is absolutely certain is I cannot change the past.

Then what can we do about uncertain futures? Some people may answer that all futures are uncertain, but that doesn't really help me feel better. How about you? What helps me feel better is being active. It doesn't matter if the next page isn't written in stone as long as I am still holding a pen. And that is where I was stuck yesterday. I had put down my pen. I didn't know my next sentence. I was waiting for someone else to write the next part of my story.

So I took back some control. I wrote one letter at a time. In this case, I wrote one email at a time. I reached out to see who I could help. If I can't help the way I am used to helping right now, what other ways can I make a difference? 

The thing is, as soon as I got done writing a few emails I got a call. The Universe was responding to my actions. It wasn't a game-changing call, just a small bit of positive news that encouraged me to keep moving. The clouds were parting, or to go back to my first visualization, I was blooming. 

It is great to live in the moment, but when that moment isn't pleasant there may be factors outside that moment invading the space. Perhaps it is a sign to turn inward or perhaps it is a sign to get proactive and take back some control. Only you can answer what you need in that moment. There is no right or wrong answer. If it feels right go with it, but if it feels heavy maybe it is time to try something new. 

I'm so grateful to push through and write yesterday. I'm grateful to honor that lotus feeling, resting and blooming. I'm grateful to get proactive and write. I'm grateful to recognize the weight and cast it off. I'm grateful for those responses I received yesterday. I'm grateful to feel energized by my actions and know I am moving in the right direction. I'm grateful to take a break and go play at the park with my kids. I'm grateful for bits of good news to encourage me. I'm grateful to see solutions now, rather than road blocks. 

What do you do when you are stuck? What do you do to move forward?

May we remember we are all different. May we take the time to figure out what works best for us and use those methods to create our best life. Have a beautiful day!

Today nature was calling. It is rare to get a day in the fifties in January. Even though it hadn't neared its peak temperature and the clouds were heavily in place, we decided to get outside and go to the park today.

My little one woke early so she was pretty tired and mostly observed from the stroller. My oldest cruised the whole time on her bike. Some places were still a bit icy where the shadow of trees hadn't melted it away but really that just added to the adventure. My preschooler really enjoyed trying to ride on the ice. And we all got to take in the beauty of Canadian Geese, Mallard Ducks, assorted other small wildlife, and even saw two trains up close! 

It was a so refreshing to be outside. Usually in the winter I am snuggled up in layers avoiding going out. I'm still not a fan of being cold but I made a mental commitment this year to see if getting outside more in the winter would also help the seasonal affective disorder. It really does seem to make a big difference! There is always a nice warm home to come back to, thankfully, to thaw in later. 

What elevates your mood? What invigorates you? What motivates you to try something new or do something you normally wouldn't? 

I'm grateful to get outside today. I'm grateful to be keeping my commitment to get outdoors this winter. I'm grateful my girls love being outside and the cold doesn't seem to bother them. I'm grateful for warm hats and coats. I'm grateful for a cute knitted hat. I'm grateful for a warm fuzzy blanket now that I am back inside. I'm grateful for strollers that allow tired little ones to cruise along and keep up. I'm equally grateful to slow down a bit when they want to walk and participate more fully. I'm grateful and proud for how well my preschooler is doing with her bike. I'm grateful for the multitude of questions she can come up with that make me slow down and really see things I otherwise would have missed. I'm grateful for so many beautiful parks to choose from in our area. I'm grateful for some that even have some flatter trails for beginner bikers. I'm grateful for the fresh air and feeling the coolness as it went into my lungs. I'm grateful to watch my breath as it curled and floated back out into the world. I'm grateful for these beautiful little moments.

May today be the breath of fresh air we needed. May we choose to push ourselves to grow and love each minute of the process. Have a beautiful day!

There really is joy in giving. I was feeling a little overwhelmed again last week. There is a lot to get done over the coming days and I wasn't convinced there was actually enough time to do it. Thankfully I have a whole team of supportive people in my life!

One of the things needing done was delivering presents my daughter had made for some of her friends. Another task was delivering cards for Thanksgiving. (I had decided this year more than ever needed Thanksgiving cards more than Christmas cards so we could add some positive light as we enter the holiday season.)

The cards I settled for mostly just mailing. The presents needed hand delivered. Hand delivering them definitely took more time, but it was well worth it! It was so nice seeing the smiles on my daughter and her friends' faces as she shared the gifts she made them. It was such a gift to share in their joy.

I was also blessed to have mom watch my kiddos a little this weekend so I could get some other tasks done. I was able to make my mom a new mask, as well as some for me, and get some preschool planning done. My mom always says it is as much a gift to her as it is to me. And isn't it true? Giving is a gift in itself. It brings joy to both parties. 

I'm so grateful for my amazing support system, especially my mom. I'm grateful for my sewing machine holding up all these years. I'm grateful to have the ability to make my own masks. I'm grateful for my daughter's generosity in giving gifts to her friends and asking to get something for her sister too. I'm grateful to support her in giving. I'm so grateful to be reminded how good it feels to give and how it can bolster up my mood and mindset in such a positive way. I'm grateful to be heading into a season specifically about giving. I'm grateful to start by giving thanks for all the beautiful blessings in my life.

How are you doing? Between the pandemic, Winter coming, and the holiday season; what are you doing for self-care? If you are struggling, know you are not alone and there is support out here for you. And if you feel it in you to find a way to give, you may find that just that act is a good way to start feeling great again. 

​May today help us remember the true spirit of this season. May we give with a generous heart and feel the gift of joy in return. Have a beautiful day!

This morning provided the most beautiful gift. My youngest daughter woke up first, as usual. We played in her room for a little while and then went downstairs. We ate breakfast but the rest of the family was still sound asleep. 

My youngest loves being outside. She quickly worked her way passed the table and looked out the windows at the trees. We watched through the window as one of the small branches began twitching and bobbing erratically, definitely not from wind. After a moment a young cardinal appeared. My daughter was so ecstatic she began chirping and "whoo whoo" and any flight-animal sounds she knows trying to pair one to this bird. 

I decided to move us outside for a better view. Rather than sit on the deck's built in benches which face you toward the house, we plopped right on the deck by the windows to gaze out and up at the yard. It took a few moments for the wildlife to settle back into their routines. Soon a squirrel ran passed on the rail of the deck. The cardinal returned as well as several small birds. 

In one particularly quiet, still moment a hummingbird came and hovered, peering at us curiously. It darted back and forth watching us before it flew away. It was such a magical moment! I think even my infant daughter could tell just how special it was because she sat perfectly still watching and as soon as it was gone turned to me with her face pure glee. It was priceless.

I'm grateful for these quiet moments. I'm grateful to cherish this time not only in nature but together. I'm grateful for our woodland visitors. I'm grateful to have this beautiful slice of nature in the city. I'm grateful for the squirrels that are always active and entertaining. I'm grateful for the bountiful bird population, especially the cardinals that hold special significance for me. I'm beyond grateful to get to see a hummingbird and be fully in the moment as we studied each other. I'm grateful for my youngest daughter and her quiet, gentle personality. 

What gifts did you receive today? What moments were offered to cherish?

​May today remind us to pause and take in each moment. May we be rewarded for being present. May we cherish the memories these moments provide. Have a beautiful day!

Everything happens for a reason. I truly believe this even if I don't always like it. Some things happen from our own actions. Some things happen from our inactions. Some things are co-created through another person. But I believe most things happen as part of a divine plan.

I do not personally believe that our lives are all carved out for us by fate or anything but I do believe that the energy we put into the world and the actions we take set us on fluid paths that continue to change as we make our choices. I also believe that sometimes divine energy pops in to guide us back if we get a little stuck int he mud or wander a little too deep in the weeds. 

I believe that even this pandemic has meaning and message set in the divine. I don't believe it is as punishment but rather to guide us back to a slower life, one hopefully more in touch with nature. I think it is helping us see through some veils and help each of us find the power to explore our own reality. 

Does this belief make it easy? No. Sometimes I want to scream to the heavens "why?!" But most things come to light in due time. Relationships end so that something better can come along. Sometimes opportunities come in the aftermath of what feels like utter destruction. 

These are the things I remind myself when something is out of my control. It's not just that it is happening for a reason but that something positive will come of it, even if I never actually see it. What if that light had stayed green only to have someone run it and crash into you? Would you still complain about another red light? We never know how all the cards are falling and sometimes we never even see it in hindsight.

I like plans. I like lists and preparation. I like having a basic itinerary. I don't want it all spelled out and all the t's crossed but I want the basic layout so I know what to expect. But sometimes the best laid plans get tossed by one small hiccup. 

The hardest part for me is being in limbo. Disappointment is no fun but it is a finality that can be reconstructed in the mind to find some positive in it. The limbo, the not knowing, that is what stresses me. So today I practice finding peace in the knowledge that even if I don't know which way the coin will land, it will land that way for a reason. 

I'm grateful to recognize the familiar clench of anxiety. I'm grateful to observe it. I'm grateful to acknowledge that some of the struggle is compounded by lack of sleep. I'm grateful to focus on trust. I'm grateful to allow all the feelings to float through as I prepare myself for either relief and excitement or disappointment and sadness. I'm also grateful to know that the feelings will pass as I refocus on the positive and rebalance myself. I'm grateful to find meaning and comfort in my beliefs. 

What do you believe? What helps you when obstacles or disappointments arise?

May we trust our own beliefs. May we choose what is best for us. May we find healthy ways of moving forward when plans change. Have a beautiful day!