Now fast forward to the tough phase we have been going through the last many weeks. It has been challenging but through it all I have done my best to let her know I love her no matter what.
We stayed home today. It was much needed, both because there was so much I needed to get done and because we all just needed a day without rushing to get ready and running six different places.
We cooked the snack for my daughter to take to school tomorrow. We made cupcakes for my husband's party. I cleaned and did several loads of laundry. But most important of all was taking time to play with my girls.
The beauty of staying home is that I have two baby nap times to juggle all that needs done instead of just one. Even with her struggling at the afternoon nap today I still managed. Afternoon nap for baby means one on one time with my oldest.
As usual we went downstairs so we wouldn't have to be quite as quiet. We played around with a mini obstacle course and got some energy out, we colored, and we did my oldest's new favorite thing, we had a tea party!
At the end of the night I asked her what her favorite thing was that we did today. She couldn't decide and asked me what my favorite thing was. I loved hearing her laugh as we played tickle fight and our one on one time but I had to be honest. Lying there in her bed with her snuggled up in my arms, feeling connected to her in a positive way, all I could say was, "This." I felt a little choked up. This moment, holding my first baby girl, being snuggled and knowing how fleeting this time is..."this". So much this!
I'm grateful for this. I'm grateful to be honest. I'm grateful to get to hold her and snuggle her and feel connected. I'm grateful for a smooth-er day. I'm grateful for all the time we got to spend together. I'm grateful she is a great helper. I'm grateful to have so much love for her and to get to express it. I'm grateful for a productive day in so many ways. I'm grateful to get some one on one time with the baby too. I'm grateful for her sweet laugh and all the sounds she is making. I'm grateful to get to be home with her to witness all the mini-milestones getting us closer to those big (moving) milestones...and I'm grateful she isn't moving quite yet.
What is your "this"? What fills your heart and makes your day shine?
May our day be filled more with the "this" and less with everything else. May we take time to acknowledge and bask in our "this". Have a beautiful day!