Even when I tried to get us outside for a reset we only made it four houses down the street in twenty minutes with one child repeatedly lying down on the sidewalk or refusing to walk, the other one trying to run off ahead, and the dog stopping to poop three times and pee another four. Needless to say when we arrived home I did not feel reset, only annoyed.
Lunch went well and we had a few minutes of nice playtime. Then it was time for my preschooler and my special time while her sister started her nap. She picked painting only to meltdown multiple times about accidentally putting the wrong colors in the wrong places, but then couldn't even decide which color was in the wrong place. Oy.
After cuddling up with some books and sending her off to her own quiet time I had to just pause and laugh. No seriously, Laughter Yoga is pretty essential on days like this for my own sanity. After that it was time to let go of what my mind pictured for the day and let my "eye" seek the successes. I have gotten a little rusty at this practice but I'm determined to bring it back and keep positive spirits.
So, what was a success? My daughter's writing practice was beautiful today and she smiled while she practiced. She was so proud of herself! Our egg experiment got the point across, if not as dramatically as I'd hoped. We had a silly time coloring in outlines of the girls on giant paper...and even more fun taping it up for display. (It was the baby's first experience with tape, pretty fun and her big sister tried to show her how to use it.)
Our walk did get us out of the house. The dog's colon is cleaner and healthier than ever it seems. My littlest is finding ways to express herself and gaining new words.
I got to paint. I love to paint! My colors ended up where I wanted them and the beauty of painting with my daughter is that I'm getting pretty good and letting go of my own perfectionism and just plopping paint wherever I feel like it. Is that a blue leaf? Why yes, because there were already red, orange, yellow, and green leaves...that one felt like it needed some blue. Why not?
Now that I think about it, it was a pretty great day! We got everything done, at least to some degree that I wanted to do and that in itself is a huge success. We still had time to play and paint and read which are staples of joy in our house. Guess my mind didn't get the memo, but in the eye of the beholder this day was exactly how it was meant to be.
I'm grateful to let go of the ideas I created and step into the positive. I'm grateful to take the time to express these positive points to my daughters. I'm grateful to do my best to model being positive and I'm grateful to definitely nail the way I model being human. I'm grateful to admit when I'm wrong, apologize when I'm crabby, and celebrate whole heartedly when we turn it around. I'm grateful to pause the mental dialogue on the "shoulds" and reroute it to all the successes we had.
How do you turn the day around when it is going awry? How do you move from the mind to the eye?
May today be lived from the heart. May we find the beauty in the moments and the success in the big picture. Have a beautiful day!