I keep feeling the overwhelm creeping up on me and I keep trying to reframe it and remind myself I can handle all this. Yet when I look at all the plates spinning in my hands of things I have been trying to juggle, I feel dizzy. It feels like this additional hurdle has actually put ME on the spinner.
There is Halloween to finish preparing for because I have tasked myself with making it extra special since we do not get to trick or treat. There is schoolwork to prep for next week because I have not had time to do all the pre-preparations I had been doing at the beginning, keeping me weeks ahead. My skin is crawling at the idea of fleas being in our home and at the same time I am anxious to get started on the cleaning. The baby hasn't had my attention other than meals in days and my preschooler is acting out because the last few days her baby sister has "crashed" school time which is usually one on one time for me and her.
So what do you do on these type of days? What do do you do when things start spinning? How do you find your balance?
It may sound silly but I like to jump up and down. There is something about my feet hitting the ground with the full weight of my body that helps me ground out again. It physically puts me back on my feet. And then there is this, not the blog specifically, but finding some time to find gratitude. Finding time to breathe.
I do not need to convince myself that "I've got this." I do, it's a fact. But I do need to rebalance myself so I can do it with grace and not like a maniacal Tasmanian devil.
I'm grateful for gratitude. I'm grateful for my family who is patient with me while I do my best to hold grace and breathe. I'm grateful for my preschooler who was willing to give up some of our special time today to run to the store with me and get flea treatment supplies. I'm grateful for my dog who did her best to stand up so I could bathe her. I'm grateful for the baby who was patient as her sleep needs got lost in the static today. I'm grateful she is sleeping peacefully now. I'm grateful for our vet who is prompt to get us treatments to try and help make our dog comfortable. I'm grateful for this life, even on the days when I'm spinning and I'm pretty sure more plates have fallen than stayed up. I'm grateful to know this is my best and that is enough, no matter what it looks like.
May today remind us to give ourselves a break. May we find gratitude and grace and plenty of support at each turn. Have a beautiful day!