I mentioned this feeling to my mom and before she could respond I added, "this is what the next twenty one years will be like, isn't it?" She laughed and said, "at least". But the more I think about it; this feeling is not new. It has accompanied me on every job change, new adventure, and sometimes even the simple day to day grind. Right now it is just accentuated because there is another life depending on me and a flood of hormones and lack of sleep at play. And so as I sit here and blog, a peaceful sleeping child in the bassinet to my side, I tell myself once again, "I've got this." At least for this moment, I will allow myself to revel in this confidence.
I'm grateful for all that I am learning from my daughter. I'm grateful for what I learn from my husband as he has a very different perspective as a dad. I'm grateful for all the years of nannying, babysitting, and nurturing that allowed me a solid background in the basics of babies. And I'm grateful to be learning the specific intricacies of my own sweet child now. I'm grateful for the years I waited that allowed me more knowledge, more patience, and more time to grow myself so that I could be the mom I am today. And I'm grateful that the mom I will be tomorrow will be even stronger. I'm grateful for the rollercoaster ride I'm on and I'm so grateful for the moments when I can say, "I've got this!"
Have you been on the confidence rollercoaster? What events trigger your confidence? When do you feel like you've got it all covered?
May today give us all a view of confidence. May we remember that life IS a learning curve and may we enjoy the ride in all its twisted and turns. Have a beautiful day!