Even as I celebrate this new year I am a bit skeptical that this year will be able to completely transform back to normal. I think we have a while before this will truly be over and I don't think things will ever fully return to the normal it was before the pandemic. Most of our work protocols for one will still remain in place because they have been effective at keeping clients and staff healthy, even if it is from the common cold or flu.
When a new year rolls around many of us tend to set lofty goals. For some people that is working out every day. When I asked my preschooler she said "to go scuba diving at this place (pointing to some beautiful, exotic island featured in a magazine)." I have to admit this is now definitely on my bucket list as well but explained that she would have to wait more couple years before she could earn her diving certification.
Yesterday the communication in our household was off. The kids are getting a little stir crazy being out of a routine for the last week and a half. My husband and I didn't seem to be on the same wave length. And things were being interpreted through our own fears and sensitivities rather than just heard. It happens. We are human.
At one point I had a feeling of disappointment that on the second day of the new year we were in such friction. Then I had to laugh at myself a little. Why do I hold a random date on the calendar so highly? Do I really expect an entire year to be somehow void of bumps? Until I am no longer human I cannot expect the year to be anything but ...human. It will be an imperfectly perfect year just as I am imperfectly perfect. The bumps will help me grow and learn. The challenges will help my husband and I learn how to grow as a team. And the year, no matter what goes on externally, with the pandemic or anything else, can still be a year of beauty and gratitude.
I'm grateful to kick off the year human. I'm grateful to remember to knock down the pedestals and enjoy the real beauty. I'm grateful my husband and I were able to turn around our communication as always. I'm grateful to remove the filters of past wounds and use my ears and heart to hear. I'm grateful to create a goals list with my whole family's input. I'm grateful for goals that feel very achievable. I'm grateful to set monthly goals that build rather than one large yearly goal. I'm grateful to start with a goal of just five minutes for me. I'm grateful for the time I have had off with my family. I'm grateful for the beauty of my family (myself included!) sleeping in passed seven almost every day this last week! I'm grateful for the return of a schedule and work tomorrow. I'm grateful to tell my daughter she gets to do (home)school tomorrow which she has been missing so much on our little break. I'm grateful for this special time with her and to get to be her teacher this year. I'm grateful for the year ahead and all the love and joy (and even the bumps) it will bring.
What goals have you set for the year? What expectations are you holding for 2021? Are they achievable? What beauty will you hold on to this year?
May we remember that a new year is still a human year. May we seek to make it beautiful through gratitude rather than perfection. Have a beautiful day!